sometimes I wish I wasn't me. I feel so uncomfortable with myself, so un-normal. I wish I didn't have to be me. I try to accept this is how I am and seek ways to adjust, move forward. I feel myself pacing in my head, never really moving. somedays I hate it, the discomfort. I feel fragile, i feel others will see my dislike for myself in my eyes. I have fleeting thoughts of harming myself, to punish myself, to hurt the part of me i dislike. i am scared of who i am and who i may become. i am scared of reverting to a former version of myself. i am scared the world will expose me for being the scared little kid who lives inside me. everyday, i take a deep breath and tell myself i can do it, i can make it.
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