Selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor

I take a pill to deal with the world; I take another pill to deal with myself

I take a pill for the day; I take a pill for the night

I take a pill to move through the day

I take a pill to forget about the day

I take a pill because I hate myself

I take a pill because I hate my life

I take a pill because I cannot deal with the world

I take a pill because I am depressed

I take a pill because I don’t know what happiness is

I take a pill to remain free

I take a pill to not harm myself

I take a pill to not harm others

I take a pill to love myself

I take a pill to love my life

I take a pill to love others

I take a pill because I take a pill

I hate taking pills

My name is Brad and I have a mental health condition. I wanted for so long to believe that as a person in recovery that I had been freed from my condition. I believed that I have a good program of recovery and that through this program and all the hard work I had put into it that my mental health condition had been resolved. I found that although my mental health and substance abuse where inexplicitly tied together, I needed to work on both issues simultaneously and independent of each other. It took a trip to the hospital a couple of years ago to force me into acknowledgement of this complex relationship. I found  that I was confused, I felt threatened, I felt like I had made a mistake. I have worked with a good Doctor who understands this complex relationship and I have placed myself in the company of many people who in their compassion have helped me identify and deal with myself. My brain is wired differently. Through the aid of medication I am a better person to myself and others; and this is what I want.

I take pills because I have to.

B